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Fool That I Am

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The fool has said in his heart, “There is no God.”  Psalm 14:1a

Am I that fool?

At first thought, I would say no. I believe in God, the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. I believe in the Great I Am, the Sovereign Lord and King of the universe. My Heavenly Father who gave His Son that I might live.

I do trust God for my salvation, but how often do I play the fool by failing to trust Him for my here and now? How often do I say the words, “I believe”, but live my life as if God did not exist? How is it that I believe God for a thing as huge and sweeping as life after death, but often fail miserably when it comes to believing Him for today? I fret. I worry. I doubt. Practically speaking, I am a fool.

I’m not quite sure how to get around this. It’s something that I have struggled with all my Christian life. And yet, looking back over my years on this earth, I can see how faithful God has been to me. First, how he plucked me out of darkness and translated me into the kingdom of His glorious light. Then, how He set a fire in my soul and revolutionized my thinking. He has given me hope, forgiveness, and eternal life. My blessings are innumerable. And yet, one of the things I continually fail to do consistently is trust Him.

My pastor is quick to remind us that God takes the trials in our lives and forces them to do good to us. Perhaps this weakness of mine, this penchant for fretfulness, is the part of me that drives me to Him. For where else can a fool obtain wisdom? And, what is there to do with worry but turn it into prayer? Jesus Himself invites us to cast our cares upon Him, proof that He is the Good Shepherd who cares for His sheep. The psalmist reminds us that God knows our frame and that He is mindful that we are but dust. How tender are your mercies, oh Lord!

When my fears overwhelm me
May I submit to God’s will.
Let Truth my sweet refuge be
This, that my God is Good, still!

Again, am I that fool? Perhaps not. Not because of who I am, but because of who He is. His strength perfected in weakness.  Like Peter, let me make the heartfelt confession, “Lord, to whom shall [I] go? You have words of eternal life.”

By His Grace and for the Gospel,
Terrie van Baarsel

Note from Terrie: This will be the last post on Gospel Apprentice until the second week in July. Lord willing, I will return from this short hiatus refreshed and ready to write. God bless you all!


D.U.I.

I got caught driving under the influence…of worry.

I have a confession to make. Recently, while returning home from our local Target, I was driving while fretting. My mind was somewhere other than where it should have been. The flash of the intersection’s red-light camera and the realization that I was in imminent danger of running a red traffic signal roused me from my reverie, and I was able to stop in time, but barely.

I don’t even remember now what I was thinking about, although it was probably one of the kids that captivated my thoughts. I am a worrier, and I come from a long line of worriers. My default button is set to worry. It is my thorn in the flesh, a great weakness. I must continually remind myself that as a child of God, I need not worry. God is Sovereign. He is in control. He watches out for me. He loves me. He cares for me. He is my Heavenly Father. And, the ultimate anti-worry truth:

Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

The Gospel is tied to this passage in Romans in a very real way.

“And we…” Who are the we? Those who love God. Those who are called. Those who are called according to His purpose. This promise is for God’s blood-bought children, for those who, because of God’s gracious, effectual calling upon their lives, have laid hold of the Gospel and believed on the Name of the Son of God for a sure salvation.

“And we know…” We can build our lives on this knowledge. It is God-given, a sort of spiritual perception. It is knowledge based on truth, and not necessarily gained experientially. In fact, the very circumstances of our lives may militate against this knowing, but, because we belong to the Sovereign King of the universe, we can know this truth truly, no matter what trials and tribulations we face.

And we know, what? “That God causes all things to work together for good.”  All things. In this case, the very things that concern me. My pastor says that God takes the difficulties in our lives and forces them to do good to us. There is an eternal purpose here. Nothing is wasted in God’s economy. All things work according to the counsel of His will and for His glory. 

All the promises of God are yes and Amen in Christ Jesus. Therefore, the truth of Romans 8:28 unfolds beautifully inside the Gospel. How does this work itself out in our lives? Simply, no trial is meaningless and every joy, meaningful.

Lord, help me to see your promises as truth and walk in the reality of the Gospel.

By His Grace,
Terrie van Baarsel

(See: I Peter 5:7; Eph. 1:11, 2:4; Gal. 4:6; Matt. 6:25-34, 28:18-20; John 15:9; 2 Cor. 1:20)


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