I am a kingdom builder. My kingdom is self.
I build my kingdom according to my will. When circumstances or people fail to meet my expectations, I respond in impatience, disbelief, and anger. Sometimes I am willing to compromise a bit, but my reasons for doing so are selfish. I give a little to get a little for my kingdom.
The problem is that my idea of what the Commonwealth of Terrie should look like is in direct opposition to the Lord’s. Not only that, but I try to build my kingdom at the same time God is tearing it down. This is futile, frustrating, and absolutely exhausting.
Sometimes, a wrecking ball is called for. Sometimes the Lord uses more subtle means. But either way, my kingdom must fall. The foundation is pride, and it must be destroyed.
But this I know and believe: His Kingdom is best, His realm, the most beautiful. His authority is trustworthy and true.
My kingdom will end. It is mere vapor, all smoke and mirrors. His Scepter reigns forever.
My kingdom is constructed on a lie, His on the Truth.
I build my kingdom on shifting sand. His Kingdom is founded on the Rock that is Christ.
This morning, first thing, circumstances thwarted my kingdom yet again. I had plans. But a dead battery in my car put an end to what I had intended for my little empire today. I did not respond well.
But, there is good news.
If I should try to build my personal domain ten thousand times a day, God’s mercy and grace demolish each beggarly attempt. It is for love’s sake that my Heavenly Father will not allow my kingdom to stand. And, it is for the Gospel’s sake that my prideful response to its dismantling is crushed by the cross. He meets me there, and I am magnificently ruined and gloriously wrecked.
Jesus died for kingdom builders like me.
Your throne, O God, is forever and ever; A scepter of righteousness is the scepter of Your kingdom. Psalm 45:6
By His Grace and for the Gospel,
Terrie van Baarsel