Some Thoughts

DSC_0655It’s difficult for me to string two thoughts together right now, let alone write them down. But, I’ll try.

Last summer, my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer. This turn of events brought about lots of traveling to and from my parents’ house (a five-hour drive to Northern California) for my siblings and me. We tried to help and encourage as best we could. Many, many prayers were expressed for her. Mom suffered through chemo, hospital stays, 2 strokes and anxiety attacks.

On February 13 mom was admitted to the hospital with trouble breathing. She was treated there for two weeks and then transferred to a skilled nursing facility for rehab. Our goal was for her to get strong enough so that she could come home to Dad. Instead, she became weaker and more sick.

On March 17 my dad and brother called to say that Mom had taken a turn for the worse and that my sister and I should probably make our way up north to see her. My sister, brother-in-law, my aunt and I arrived at the rehab facility about nine o’clock that evening. We spent the next several hours sitting with Mom, praying for her, stroking her head and telling her how much she was loved. At about three that next morning, March 18, we escorted our Mom into the loving arms of her Savior. I have no doubt Jesus was waiting for her on the other side.

Here are some things I am thankful for:

Up until the last few days, Mom was not in pain.
I do not work so I was free to spend time with Mom and Dad over the last few months.
My Dad was able to take care of her. He cooked, cleaned, grocery shopped and gave Mom her meds. Amazing man.
We were able to have her with us at Thanksgiving (the biggest holiday of the year for our family).
My sister, brother and I were able to help and serve Mom while she was sick.
Mom had many amazing doctors and nurses who showed her mercy and kindness.
I have become much more empathetic toward people who have gone through similar circumstances.
Mom was surrounded by loved ones when she passed away. She did not die alone.
God has shown Himself faithful in a million different ways.
God’s Word is true.
My mom is with Jesus and I will see her again someday.
Mom was dearly loved by so many who have expressed to me what she meant to them.

There’s so much to think through and process regarding my  mom’s illness and passing. One thing I know to be true, I need an eternal perspective to see all of this correctly. I am leaning heavily on the Everlasting Arms. God is faithful, and I know that my Redeemer lives.

Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His Saints. Psalm 116:15

By His Grace and for the Gospel,
Terrie van Baarsel

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10 responses to “Some Thoughts

  • Milissa Kaufman

    Thank you for sharing Terrie. This past Sunday’s sermon – you should listen to online. As believers there is so much hope that we have, that others don’t. And one of those things is the hope of seeing other believers that have gone on before us…you will see your Mom again in the glorious presence of God and it will be amazing! Love you and praying for you! Milissa

    • Terrie van Baarsel

      Thanks, Milissa. You’ve encouraged me. And yes, I will listen to this last Sunday’s sermon online! I appreciate you taking the time to point me in the right direction. So thankful for my church family and for your prayers. MUCH appreciated.

  • liliessparrowsandgrass

    Terrie, as I read your post, I felt a physical stirring and tightness in my heart, a momentary sadness I vicariously felt in the loss of a mother while we live this momentary life on earth. However, the conclusion of your post puts everything in an eternal perspective, and we have that hope and joy in the midst of sorrow, that we who are in Christ will all meet in heaven again one day. My deepest sympathies, Terrie, and may the Lord’s peace and comfort sustain you during the days when you miss your Mom the most. Love, Dee

  • Jennifer Prostitis

    My Sweet Friend….I love you and have been praying for you and your family. xoxo

  • micey

    Oh Terrie! I’m so sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your family to have peace in Jesus name. (((Hug)))

  • Juliet

    This post is so straightforward and touching in its candor and hope. The older I get, the more I understand how unfortunate we are to be left behind those called home. I’m praying for you, TVB, and I know that that mom of yours is responsible in a major way for the light you shine on everyone around you. Besos, Juliet

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